"Cadmium" by Lexi Karma - lyrics
Cadmium
by Lexi Karma
All lyrics written by Ayden Iona
Copyright Lexi Karma, 2025
- Another Stupid Song
- Abandonment Issue
- Amort Amorph
- Vigil
- Bench Dream
- Ravenous
- Put Yourself Out There
- Alone on New Years
Another Stupid Song
Illuminate imagination
Create, produce
Learn how to save your own neck
Advertising a noose
Make it for everyone
Like everything that you fake
Compartmentalize all your feelings
Like it's not a mistake
Consumers are consumers
Because they consume
A statement quite redundant
But no moment too soon
Throw away your timepiece
Before it's too late
No one cares how you do it
But they can't hear you wait
This is another stupid song
Begging you to relate
Relate
Well, on the other hand
What matters now?
Everything's been done before
Yet nothing is foul
Take one more step back
Throw away your binoculars
The bigger picture is sitting right there
Elegant as skill provides you
Over-analyze my syntax
Give me destructive criticism
Tell me that it's really good
I will never believe you
Take it or leave it but I will not stand in your way
Illuminate imagination
What will you say
To the weakened, to the wealthy,
To those docking your pay?
Make it for everyone
Make it for you
If you offer them magic
Why can't you have some too?
Abandonment Issue
originally written 26 June, 2020
A sinking world with an ark we made that won't save me or you
Before the flood he buys a tax exempt temple
Where you aren't required but can pay the fee
To be othered just to feel like an absentee
The son of God forgives your divergence
Drowned by the congregation
Ugly as sin
Our savior walked across the water
But he kept slipping on the fish
He called us all his sons and daughters
But no one has ever seen him since
He grew up as an outcast
Left the world as kind
America's hero
Is a goddamn corpse from
Jerusalem
Our savior walked across the water
But he kept slipping on the fish
He called us all his sons and daughters
But no one has ever seen him since
Our savior walked across the water
To leave us inside
He called us all his sons and daughters
But no one has ever seen him since
Amort Amorph
written in 2018, lyrics written December 4, 2019
Sizing up what you see in me
Who are you looking at?
"Me" is ambiguous
When there is influence
Jeopardizing congruence
Just what they wanted
Fusing minds without mindfulness
Searching for a friend in an
Enemy leeching my life
Sometimes wolves are disguised
On laundry day
So never wait
To give your friend a questionnaire
In the form of statements
That are more expectations than
(Stories) Stories of conquest or
(Stories) Turmoil or both 'cause they'll
Take your love for granted
Since you already granted them
Nearly everything
So sorry that this didn't rhyme
While warning you not to waste your time
With damaged people welding pieces of a puzzle
Showing you the blueprints of your future muzzle
Only taken off to teach its victims to say
Only taken off for its victims to say
(Sorry) Sorry for caring for
(Sorry) You and for being a monster
(Sorry) And for apologizing
(Sorry) Sorry for being
Do not be sorry anymore
Break a vicious cycle wound up back when you were young
Change your bandages in the face of a smoking gun
Clean the chamber in a temple designed for one
Wipe the windows until you recognize the sun
Metamorphize
I am only
A person born anew from every
Other person
That I ever knew
Whether we met for two seconds
Or became two of a kind
You have changed the "me" you see
Because you always change my mind
I will be forgotten
Until then our memories
Metamorphize everything
Be more of yourself with me
Now rest
I am only
A person born anew from every
Other person
That I ever knew
Rest your mind
War comes in the morning
Act or not
Your intent will be rewarded
Metamorphize everything
Be more of yourself with me
Vigil
A world that's fair
Is no world you want to live in
Everyone should earn their own mask
Crook, artist, or politician
Would you snub the matrimony
Of two people with silver-stained tongues?
Some feast on the spoils of class
Or silently peck with no one
Undercover, you're invincible
To everything around you
Apolitical until the
Hammer of fate comes impromptu
Improvise sketch comedy
To feign superiority
Dawn bullet-proof vests
'til dusk's bleeding chest
Watch your cowards wave guns
In the face of the stable
Or dream of vigilantes
Equally enabled
One villain is your conscience
Because either way you choose
To act based on your instincts, family, your friends, or the news
I sing a bunch of cryptic crap
Hoping that you listen too
Correlation's clear as crystal
Killing complication's clues
Where do we end semantics
In relation to the truth?
Like gods, time travel, mutual break-ups
Why leave it up to you?
Rash decisions
No cure for us all
Homegrow heroics then pray they don't fall
Cliches aren't always imperfections
When you want to change the world
I'm not perfect either
But let me interrupt this rhyme scheme
With an easy, blatant, and hopeful toast
To the death of homophobia
A personal damnation of racism
Enforced by pigs and gods
If one life hides in anger
I hope empathy will bloom
If one life lies with hatred
What we get's what we assume
On what grounds will broad change be enough?
One big difference
Between us and fictitious
Heroes lending everyone their
Own lives as per sacrifice
That they should not die for
As easy as it is to say
We can provide salvation without
Hiding away
Hiding to stay
Among all of these things and people that we love and hate
As long as we remain vigil
'Bout time I told ya that I was raised
With an acre of green grass
Everything I was led to believe
Are the things I now find crass
If you think all my friends are going to Hell
And that this makes you a winner
I cordially invite you way down South
To attend a three-course dinner
A gift one sold
Of a story never told
To observe
To be part of
Someone's grace
Gray in the ground
Grovelling at your own sound
Lies the sediment
Of your sentiment
In a deeper pit you will have found
A cremation
Ashes pass
No creation
Ever lasts
Sometimes selfishness can help you
Save the world from shadows cast
A candlelight vigil
For the people left
A candlelight vigil
It should split
Both sides
To try to laugh off all who have died
Don't think you have the capacity to mourn them all
Just trust me, you don't
Your destiny is make-believe
Either it's controlled by reality
Or you may be at the helm
With logic walking off the plank
If this ship is made of concrete
Then the curse will also sink
You sailed looking for an ocean
Leaving no one to thank
A candlelight vigil
For all we will do wrong
A candlelight vigil
For those who die of boredom from this song
Bench Dream
Sometimes I would rather stay awake
To stay away from that familiar place
A plastic river, a sherbet sky
And a backdrop of shops and stairs
I imagined someone and a metal bench
I walk by and lean on the fence
An arm around mine, that's how I know
I should not have gone to bed yet
Say what you will
Say grab the moon
Hoping that you'll be real soon
The hope that's left over drops off
I wake up alone and I think I almost like it
I'd hate that levee less if I dived in
The sun set finally
Now that I've learned it's not just up for me
Not relationship material
Too easy to step on
Just an open book, too close
Better step off
You can't close a book before it's written
I wanted another obsession
And prestidigitation wasn't enough
I walked around the water
Lexi said I'll get the sunset ready
My friend said life's too short for the levee
I'd miss you but you have to drive away
I said I'll keep in touch but I can't stay
They both said there's nothing to climbing down
You'll resurface so just dive in
Say what you will
Say grab the moon
Hoping that you'll be real soon
The hope that's left over drops off
I wake up alone and I think I almost like it
I'd hate that levee less if I dived in
The sun set finally
Now that I've learned it's not just up for me
Ravenous
lyrics written on January 6, 2025
Turns out I just didn't want enough
Where I'm from you aren't supposed
To dream big and don't sweat in the face
Of the big stuff
People I grew up with frowned
And said something about inflation
Seems like the impasse
Is I looked to the past
Saw people breaking their backs
For an end to that conflation
All you want is a dragon's den
To flounder in your waste
The tower you worship yourself from
Starves the crew that had it made
No matter your gluttony
You can't be like them
They say build a ladder so
They can kick you down
I know words alone can't change you deep down
But I hope you'll reconsider
Since what I'm saying should not be
And never should have been profound
All you want is a dragon's den
To flounder in your waste
The tower you worship yourself from
Starves the crew that had it made
No matter your gluttony
You can't be like them
They say build a ladder so
They can kick you down
We can cooperate with Gaia, instead she's decaying
You blame planters of trees
You think empathy makes you soft
You'd rather cough and pay to bleed
Raise your favorite finger to what I've been saying
Hoping I'll drown
Tower or den
You will curse
You will claw
You will be struck down
Put Yourself Out There
lyrics written December 12, 2019
Lifeforms forming their own lives
Own your own tonight
Tonight's to nights unwise
Alone or otherwise
Your consciousness torn apart by dreams
Don't awaken them if you're not ready
Repression presses you again
Anyone in this case could be a special friend
It sounds case sensitive but it might save you in the end
Experienced or not you will see soon
Hundreds of safer afternoons
People are not made of glass
But you can break them all
Abuse them one by one
Someone will always answer
Tension will not always rise
Your sense of self-worth can fall
Never become a curable cancer
People are not made of glass
But you can break them all
Abuse them one by one
Someone will always answer
Tension will not always rise
Your sense of self-worth can fall
Or don't listen
Reason falling away
Lukewarm at best
At worst, crawling away
It may look like it belongs on your body
But it mutates your soul
Sex is not the holy grail
Until this quest of trust is sold
When I was younger
Put yourself out there
Is what they all told me
Seduction
Is a road sign
Touch is not a destiny
Touch can have many meanings
Truth always comes for your feelings
I wish someone had told me that
The act doesn't end
As good as it looked on the screen
As for the pressure
(Put yourself out there) Don't even listen
If society knew how to solve all of your problems
It would have done so gracefully
Touch can be deceiving
Reassuring and relieving
I wish someone had told you
The climax is never the last scene
I wish someone had told me
The climax is never the last scene
Alone on New Years
Hard to imagine someone being somber on New Year's
Go celebrate the turn of your new leaf
I will cheer you on from my chair
Tied down to it for all you care
Please excuse me, I have a date with grief, so be happy
Gather your loved ones
I will happily replay all of our
Memories and what's to be
You protect me
Until you die
I have shown up late to some important premonitions
Monitoring a satire of fate
Pointing, gawking, staring, laughing
Acting, composing, and gaffing
All the cast members give pity
As we all party too late
For once, I'm honest
I love you
As much as I'm scared
To live among you more
(Until we die)
Raise a glass adorned with mineral deposits
You're still alive
Let my sarcasm empower your virtue
We are all the anti-hero in the story of this curse
Of utopia embroidered by an eagle in a hearse
We cry on a rotting pile of feathers
Weighing down our backs until
The spikers of the punch bowl
Tell us drinking it is evil while the
Rest of us are all amazed
For three hundred and sixty-five days
Survived here
And then we die
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